Letter to my Freshman self

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Dear Freshman self,

 First of all, there is some advice I’d like to give you, that I wish I knew at the start of high school. In life, the only constant is change. Highschool involves lots of changes and I wasn’t quite prepared for all the changes in myself, and the people around me. 

  The transition from middle school to high school is the first change I didn’t quite like at the time. Most of my middle school friends were rezoned to a different school, so it felt like everything that was familiar to me was stripped from my life. Freshman year was the first year I saw my friends around me changing, and freshman year I made and lost the most friends in the four years of high school. I also started to discover my anxiety- but did not understand the depth of the importance of my mental health just yet.

  Sophomore year is full of highs and lows, and probably the most influential year. Just enjoy all the good moments you have with friends and family, and be thankful for the people in your life. There isn’t much I can say to help you through the different heartaches you’ll experience within 2018-2019, but this year also holds some of my favorite memories of high school. I got my first job at IHOP- and worked 5 days a week for the next 8 months. Don’t worry, waitressing does get easier within the first 2 months. I also grieved losing one of my good friends Damani Gibson, time will heal most of the pain. Just enjoy the memories with him a little more, at some point those memories are not painful anymore, but you will smile when you remember them, and be thankful for them- because they will make you a better person. I also started a lot of bad habits in my sophomore year, so that senior me is left correcting. Just do what you’re supposed to and make it easier on the future version of yourself. Do things for the future you will thank you for. And remember what you feed grows and what you starve dies.

 It’s true when they say Junior year is the hardest. Learn to balance school work, your social life, and work. Ps, you should really work on getting your license at 16 or 17 and stop procrastinating. You also learn that your passion is actually teaching. You’re not the best student so this does surprise a lot of people, but I think the whole reason you want to go into teaching is that you know what it’s like to not understand things as fast as other students, and how big of a role mental health affects a student. Also, there’s a teacher that will push you to your limits, as frustrating as this will be, it will help inspire you to be a better teacher in the future. You also learn to love someone this year, and then learn to get through heartbreak. The best advice I can give you, is that you will love more than one person in your lifetime. Love is also unconditional and when you love someone you always wish them the best life full of happiness and success. You also grieve for your aunt this year. I think this loss pushed my anxiety over the edge because I made an impulsive decision to cut my hair in the chemistry bathroom at lunch. I still don’t regret it, but you should prepare for your mom’s reaction. Enjoy spring break, because you will be quarantined for the next 3 months. Covid 19 also known as Corona hits, this pandemic cancels school, and spring break is extended into summer. You can’t go anywhere without a mask, and hand sanitizer and toilet paper are emptied from stores. 

  Senior year is finally here, I’m doing online school and we aren’t having a homecoming dance so I’m hoping this pandemic is gone before prom and graduation. On the bright side, I can’t be late to first period anymore, since getting to school on time is something I’ve struggled with since 6th grade. And a note to the future me, thank goodness high school is over, we finally did it.

  In conclusion, high school is full of good memories and character development moments. It will reshape who you are. Redefine how you see the world, your morals, how you handle yourself. It is full of self-growth and every obstacle you face will teach you something new, and by the end of it, you’ll learn how to be happy and take everything with a grain of salt and the most important thing I learned was self-love. Life will strip you of things, people, and ideas you think you rely on to be happy until you realize you don’t depend on these things to be happy, they are wants and not needs, no matter what is taken from you, you will always find yourself back to happiness, especially when you recognize loving and taking care of yourself is the key to happiness. High School has taught me more about myself and life than it has subjects in school. So be ready to leave high school a different person than you came into it as.

 

By Natalie Echelle